I really don't know how to put this. When I started working, I loved it & I still do. The job was & is basically amazing for me.  I have been finding that a few friends are having issues with this. I keep getting "we miss you so much" "we don't see you any more" "you never call any more" & (the most insulting) "we understand that money is important" ... and the list goes on. I don't work every day, it's called a part time job, and I make time to call everyone.
I have to admit that I stopped calling everyone a while ago, because the way I see it they can call me just as easy as I can call them. I am always calling everyone to check on them or just to talk ... yet it's the same thing over & over. If I don't call they get upset & worried or worse think I am upset with them. (Get over it, if I have an issue I will tell you.) Now they are taking it that it is my job that is "keeping me away." Yet the way I see it I don't have to be the only one calling.

If I am called, I always called back when I got home. Or used my cell on my way home to chat. Now, I don't hear from any one ... that is depressing. I am just don't know what to do. I told them that the phone works both ways ... pick up & use it. (I have been handling it with them ... they just don't get the point.) My kids aren't deleting the calls that are for me, my friends just simply don't call ... extremely depressing when you consider it.

When a person gets a job there is a reason for it. For me, it was because my kids are old enough & I need to be able to pay off my truck. Plus I needed to get out of the house, I needed to get out of the house instead of being here 24/7 ... volunteer wasn't working. I was excited that they called me off the resume that I created. Yes the money is imporant ... generally that is why people work. But that hasn't stopped me from talking to the people that I consider my friends. I have always gone out of my way for them ... and now that my time is being used, it is like it bothers them. Because I am not always here for every little thing ... I didn't have the same reaction when they were working.

I am believing that they could call just as easily as I could call them. No one bothers to even do so ... I guess they don't care as much as they claim to ... although I have to hear the claims over & over again.

Now my husband's opinons is just to let it go, because some times things do not always go the way we want them. Unfortuntally, this has been going on for over 3 months ... it is not just "just going on" or just starting. It has been going on for a while, my tolerance & understanding for it has finally just stop or ended. Mainly because I am tired of feeling the pity they love trying to make me feeling. My husband is probably partically ... but at this point it has been going on for far to long. I just am far to annoyed, angered ... and tired of it. Plus I am hurt over this as well, because instead of making it look like they did anything it's always "she's at work."

I have just hit a wall where you think wouldn't hit with friends ... I have been there for a while. Now, I just simply at a place where I just don't know what to do. I have told them, but I am not their mother, their reminder ... nor am I the only person who can make a friendship work. Which is where I feel like I am at now, I do find that pretty pitiful.

Eventually this situation will either work out, or I will find that the friends that I had were what I though they were. Or maybe I am hoping it will ...