Today was interesting to say the least ... seeing that is only going on 430pm here should tell you some thing. I have been up since 4am! (For me that is way to earily.)  I had to be at work by 5 ... because of a sale we are having today. I bounced all over that store, here & there ... every where. How much fun is that, after having a horrids nights sleep.

Today I know I worked like crap but I did pretty well to be honest ... better than even the worst employee's that we have working for us. My mind was on other issues, and that wasn't were it needed to be. I was suppose to be off tomorrow but I am working to unload a truck ... Yea for me!

No, let's do a reality check. Even though my mind was not completely on the work at hand ... I did rather well. The customers were taken care of & pleased plus my job was done. I made a list of what needs done in the store when I had an "eye of the storm" in my head. Calmness isn't something that I always get but this time I got an entire list of items done. It was rather nice, & impressive because I covered all the problem areas that we need to fix or go over. Which can be a lot ... but it can be done with team work.

As for my other issues ... they have given me a lot of problems. Because even though I cannot do anything about them. These were friends ... ones that I though were sincere friends. Guess once again I am learning a lesson of life. They only are friends when they need something but when you cannot be there ... you aren't really their friend. Guess I should have figure this one out long before this one ... but life goes on. As much as much I hate to say it, it still hurts a lot. I would LOVE to smack them silly ... but that is pretty childish. I grew up a long time ago, but it still hurts when this is done.

You still have to try, because if you don't then you will live a miserable life. You try with friends, with events ... you try with every thing or you will be miserable. You learn from that pain or misery ... yet you just wish one time it just won't hurt. Some times you find really great friends or what ever you are looking for ... other times you wish you hadn't even tried. Then you pick yourself up & try again ...

Life is strange when you look at it that way ... but if you run from it, then you would be much more miserable. Today I simply wanted peace of mind & I could not get it.