I can find positive & negative in life ... just depends on how you look at life. In my life there have been a large varity of situations who have made me who I am, would I go back & change them ... honestly no because then I won't be who I am. Even those there are some shockingly painful experiences in my past.

Today, I talk to my sister & that is a relationship that amazingly I consider why I even bother to continue keeping. We were not raised together ... she was adopted. I didn't know about her 'til I was 16 & at times I wonder if maybe I still shouldn't.

If you have a horrid day, I can bet you hers was worse. She can knock you down the blink of an eye & smile doing it ... yet you are to sit back & are not be offend by it. I have known here for over 16 years & there are times when I think she is really a sad, depressed person.

Today her lovely statement was that 'no matter where I live I offend everyone!' How sweet of her ... and all I could think was "why didn't I have her put in the psycho house again?" All I did start to was explain the situation I was experiencing with the people around me ... once again she jumped to the wrong conclusion. She didn't have the full story before she started to "give her advice" which us usally 100% wrong. Let's put it this way, if she wanted to save some one from killing themself ... they'd not only slit their wrist but her's too!

I explained it all ... to include the new twist.

See I use to help manage a volunteer program & now there is a twist. They want all my vol hours, so they can give me put in for another "award" ... because I have stopped calling everyone & being there. I don't want an award. When I helped out, it was to help the new wives adapt to the military & learn ... & now that FRG has failed. They do not get the info out, they have not web site (I stopped doing it after being insulted & degraded), & they don't call with the right info. They can keep their award or give it to someone else.

When the "friends" did what they did, I walked away from every thing.  It took some time & some really harsh comments direct at me. I was hurt, & I still am. Then to listen to my sister & her opinion when she doesn't know what the hell she is talking about. I could have smacked her till her head was still spinning next year. This is a women that does not talk the siblings she grew up with, she barely talks to the father who raised her ... & she wants to pass judgement on me -- once again.

I can understand if she had known 1/2 of what was going on. Yet she didn't know anything, she made the error of assuming.  She jumped because I don't get along with my neighbor, who told my husband that she would be here for me when he was in Iraq ... prob being is I had a stroke & my kids took care of me -- seems to be where was that person?

My friend that is about an hour away has seen the BS that is going on here & agrees with me on this on ... just walk away. As for my sister ... she didn't like being told just how damn wrong she was. I prob won't hear from her for a while. Which is prob just as good, because right now I much don't want to hear from her. That was simply quite annoying.

The last few days my kids have been interesting to say the least. They older ones have been wearing their dads treachs coats (I cannot spell any more .. sorry). Out I had to go to get a new one ... I love the places off base were soldiers sell the old stuff they don't need any more! Saved me a ton of money. Now all the older ones have coats & they think they are just looking so cool (is that still the "thing" to say?).

They are going to work hard this weekend so they go the supermall, seeing they have a day off. They plan on loading up the back of my truck tomorrow of things they don't need any more. Great idea, which means I don't use my truck for 2 days. I love the fact they agreed to do this & that they have started doing this actually ... I just hope they complete it. What they are planning is getting all the toys & clothes they don't play with or wear & putting them in boxes & bages ... loading them in the truck. Fri night & Sunday Morn we will drop them off at the goodwill or thrift store. Now when you consider the fact that I have 4 kids ... that's a huge loads! Because when they choose to get ride of stuff together ... that usally means a lot of stuff goes.

I know yard sales are what some people do, but we usally take it down to goodwill or thrift store. It is just something I have always done. It is just too funny because were like "can't you just pull the truck in the yard" ... not really housing might get a bit upset. We will just leave it under the car port. You can just load it up there. The funny part will be what my neighbors think of it. It's my children's choice, they asked & I told them they could do this if they wanted to. Only thing I asked was they completed the task. I would drive them over Fri night & Sun moring before we went to the supermall. All I needed from them was a promise to complete the task.

I love when complete a task they plan out. Even it is walking the dog or going for a walk ... homework, reading a book, doing a chore. That list can go on, as long as they complete it.

I had my blood work done to day ... just another lovely test to find out if my migraines are getting as even severe, as my neuro doc thinks they are. Diabetes runs in my family just as much. Some of the signs are similar, to remove on from the other ... out come the needles. Now it is just let's wait for the call. Only issue is Doc will only call if there is a positive & won't call if there is a negative. Which is a good sign.

You have to love the "don't eat for 12 hours" ... they then they take blood & make you tinkle in a cup! At least I didn't have to drink that carbon soda. It could have been a lot worse. Depend on what they are looking for. I guess when it considering that, you can walk around with a smile thinking "lucky me."

Off to clean my house ... Then off to work. Work -- that issue that keeps me from having a life LOL. What a joke!